Wow. To put my feelings into one word.
It has been 1.5 years since I wrote last. I have been reading the last 7 years worth of entries. I will update some of these. My 9/5/93 list of friends was surprisingly accurate. I am still friends with most of those people. I recently found out that Mara has a baby now. Until I read that entry I had not thought of Danielle as being cute for a long time. We are still good friends and I think she is gorgeous. (A big part of that is probably thanks to an afternoon during senior year when I walked home with Danielle and we had a very candid and spirit-infused conversation in which I clearly remember sharing my testimony of the Book of Mormon with her – she was a member of the Seminary Council so this wasn’t trying to rescue her or anything – and while the memory of it is not clear to me I believe she also shared her testimony with me.) In my senior yearbook she asked for a wedding invitation. I am at BYU and have been for 4 months. I have tons of new friends. I will list my best friends as they stand now.
| Boys | Girls |
| Jared Jacobson | Kristina Beckstrom |
| Bryant Burningham | Connie Burningham (Bryant’s mom) |
| *Jaren Fort | *Becky Bohman |
| *Phil Olsen | *Robyn Stirling |
| *Ben Stanley | *Kirstin Rundquist |
| Carl Miller | *Bonnie Irwin |
| Ken Miller | *Sara Lutz |
| Bill Miller | *= met at college |
Jenn got married. She has a baby boy now. (And I have to add that the biggest regret from my friendship with her is that I couldn’t bring myself to attend her wedding reception when she got married. I was too busy mourning the relationship I had for a few weeks hoped that our friendship could blossom into.)
Last week I sent my papers in for my mission. I should get my call really soon.
My roommate just got off the phone a few minutes ago. It is 2:37 in the morning.
I went to homecoming last weekend so I will give a background and a story so that they are recorded. In about February of this year I was walking into the school from seminary totally depressed. I ran into Kristina. (Beckstrom – in case someone fails to make that connection) She asked how I was and I said not good but that I would make it. She said that she was sorry ans we passed each other. Just before I turned the corner she turned and asked if I needed a hug. I said “I guess so” and went and she gave me a hug. I wrote a thank you note.
I began to feel a little better but that showed that she cared. Later, just before the musical and during it while she was under the stress of being a lead, I was there for her.
When Senior Ball came around I asked her out to it. (I had forgotten that.) But she did the bravest thing she could and said that she wouldn’t be comfortable. I respect her for that. When yearbook day came around she said that we would have to do things together over the summer. We had already planned a picnic and a concert but she got a job in Yellowstone and that fell apart. I didn’t expect to see her all summer but amazingly I did once at which time I informally asked her to homecoming. She said yes if I was creative asking her. I didn’t ask her until a week before but she said yes. I got Jared to take Kim (Jones then, now Jacobson) so we could double. We both had a great time. Kristina mentioned her desire to go on a mission. And when I talked to her in the car after Jared and Kim were home she said that she had kept my not from February.
I am totally in Love with Kristina. (Between February and Senior Ball I did take her out.) We have plans to see each other at least 4 more times before I leave. If she is not with someone when I get back from my mission I will jump into her life, let her gone on a mission, and marry her when she gets back. I am serious.
I am afraid to have these hopes dashed but they probably will be. (Old sting from Jenn talking perhaps?) Oh well, I’ll survive.
I don’t recall if Kristina was attached to anyone after my mission. I know her husband is basically my same age so I’m pretty sure they weren’t married by the time I got home but while our paths have crossed a few times since my mission I didn’t chase her between my mission and her marriage.
I am trying to write every day and for a habit.
I can’t wait for my call.
For historic reference, O.J. Simpson was found Not Guilty of murder today.
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