Emma woke me up a couple of times last night and after the second time for some reason I began remembering the time period when she was born – March of 2013 – and felt the need to record those memories.
During the first months of 2013 I was commuting from Bountiful to Lehi to work for a company that didn’t really know what to do with me. I had hired on to Solution Stream in the last quarter of 2012 to work for TruHearing with the expectation that I would become a full-time employee at TruHearing. It hadn’t taken long for me to begin dreading the possibility of working full time in the toxic work environment I had found there at TruHearing. Thankfully in December, my boss at Solution Stream had asked me to come work directly for them (consulting with other companies) rather than continuing with TruHearing. The problem was, they didn’t really have a particular project for my skills so I bounced around between a variety of small jobs and minor clients. Finally in late February they told me that they were going to try and get me hired on with another client and that if that company didn’t choose to hire me they would have to let me go. Seeing as that company was also located in Draper I wasn’t thrilled about the commute and I became even more earnest in looking at jobs closer to home. My last day at Solution Stream was March 1 which got me a final month of insurance while I interviewed, freelanced, and spent the bulk of my time holding the family together after Emma was born on the 4th.
That time could have been very stressful because I had been bouncing around between jobs for nearly 2 years and not feeling stable vocationally but I approached March as a blessing because I was free to give almost complete attention to taking care of Emma while Laura recovered from the Cesarean birth. I literally slept with Emma every night from the day she arrived home and while I took time during the days to look for jobs, go to a few interviews, and work some odd jobs that were the leftovers from the freelancing I had started while at Solution Stream I was trusting that the Lord would provide a path forward financially.
It was easier to trust in that because I knew I had been doing my best to provide for my family. It was also easier to trust because I had already applied for a promising job at Questar before I was unemployed and when I interviewed for that job then I really felt like that was where I wanted to be – even though I continued to look for other options.
I see from reviewing my journal that – aside from a couple of entries related to accepting an offer from Questar 3 weeks after my previous job ended – I didn’t record those life altering months between March and July of 2013. I lost a job that wasn’t working for me just long enough to really support the family for a month while Laura recovered from the surgical birth then had enough support at a brand new job to be able to take Laura for surgery in June and then survive the hospitalization that came in July (3rd) as a result of her massive abscess after that surgery. We managed to take hit after hit financially and emotionally as a family during those months without sinking – even if that all set the stage for Laura to collapse mentally in the wake of the CPS investigations that came between November 2013 and January 2014. That collapse is what we are hoping we are finally stable from after 5 years of torture that few people even in our extended family can comprehend.
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