Momentum

I feel like I’m stuck in a rut or coasting in some ways lately but I’m still doing a lot of useful stuff all the time. That stood out in stark relief to me today as Laura asked for a blessing because she’s been having depressive thoughts after I’ve been noticing that for all her talk of doing more nothing is changing. I think she’s depressed because she’s stagnant.

She talked about getting a job but after a couple of applications she stalled and she’s not even talking about it now. She talked about doing the dishes if I got them caught up but after catching them up three times I’ve left them for a couple of days and she hasn’t lifted a finger or said a word about doing them.

I think she needs to acknowledge that she’s not making progress instead of trying to convince herself (against all evidence) that she is. I think she needs to recognize that both the power and the responsibility to take the first step are entirely hers. I think she needs to understand that living her kind of zombie life is a perfect incubator for feelings of depression.