51 weeks ago (yesterday) I began journaling again regularly. Of course everything was focused on Laura.
- Laura tried to kill herself.
- Laura’s in the ICU.
- Laura’s in the psych ward.
- Laura’s at Mom’s house.
- Laura had a good day.
- Laura had a bad day.
When it no longer seemed compelling to report on Laura daily I slowly abandoned regular journaling again. As we have been approaching this anniversary I’ve been thinking about last year and today thought about the journaling. I hope my journaling can be consistent but not focused like a laser on Laura.
I’ll start by giving an updated context on my life. I woke up today to the news that President Monson died last night. Mom is working toward retirement to be able to give us the extra help we need even with 2 nannies (morning and evening, middle of the day is too much for Laura to do consistently). Besides the need for extra help we know the money for nannies is swiftly dwindling. Mom worried that she might retire only to have us not need her soon afterward. I’ve assured her that isn’t going to happen. We aren’t going to make the mistake of underestimating our need as we have done several time in the past (not just the last year).
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