Last night Laura actually invited me to snuggle with her when we went to bed. That hasn’t happened since before she started talking about divorce and it seems like a very good sign that she’s feeling that divorce isn’t the route forward. Today we were favored when we checked into the hotel in Cedar City to be able to upgrade to a room with three queen beds for a very modest price increase. Now instead of not even being in the same room as I had half expected for this Shakespeare trip (each of us in a separate room with 4 of the kids) we have more space and Laura and I got a private room with a door between us and the younger kids while the older girls got the other room. Once again Laura invited me to snuggle with her.
For nearly a full month I’ve had no desire for sex due to the cloud of potential divorce dominating our sky but after our talks on Sunday I felt we made some breakthroughs such that I was again open to physical affection. These invitations to snuggle on both Monday and Tuesday indicate that she is also opening up as well. Who knows how long it will be before we have sex again but the important thing is that we can start to be close again which will help lay the emotional foundation to bring us truly back together as opposed to the “we may be in the same bed but we’d just as well be on different planets” that had been there case the last few weeks.
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