As I read this I wonder if I am like the brother of Jared here – stagnant, failing to progress, content enough with my progress so far that I fail to seek the will of the Lord for me and my family? If so I have been shaken by my circumstances, and yet I’m unsure if I can either bear more trial without breaking or have confidence that I would continue to call upon the Lord consistently and effectively even in times of ease.
I feel broken both in my ability to do my job and I’m my capacity to do more than I am doing now. I’m recognizing the “oh wretched man that I am” which Nephi uttered but there is no light now saying that things will work out. (No light beyond the permanent “no matter how bad it gets you still get air to breath.”)
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