Category: Journal
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Changes abound
When I got to work today I learned almost immediately that Sean Ellicott is taking a different position which means if may decided to blame anything on PMs I’ll be his scapegoat. I also heard that Jared Tritch is being demoted. Just more turmoil and the possibility of losing another good engineer. With almost everyone…
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Enoch ALL
For the last couple of days Laura and I have been wrestling with the option of letting enough go to the ALL program at Cedar Ridge. He had provisional acceptance but his classroom behavior was enough to give us pause and when we talked to the principal it have her cause to be cautious. I’m…
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Good day
With the girls leaving for girls camp this morning I started the day and was braced for the possibility of 3 tough days – especially for Laura. Happily that didn’t happen today. Laura had a good day with the kids as they went and played at the park and she held them to expectations for…
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Unexpected adventure
This evening Andy and Marsha invited people to help them put up the kayak and boat from our Bear Lake trip. Most of the families offered some help. It was more work than I anticipated but it was good to assist them. Afterward we volunteered to take the trailer back to Andy’s house in Salem.…
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Cracking the chrysalis
Laura and I had a couple of good conversations today. She mentioned that I have basically been the father on this vacation that she had always hoped I would be. Honestly I have been the father that I had always wished to be – despite my struggles. We also got to talk about how much…
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Adopted
Laura’s cousin Allison joined the family reunion this year. Her daughter Kathryn was playing catch with my girls and I joined the game. As we were playing she started calling me “Dad” and either Savannah it Alyssa responded with “why are you calling him ‘Dad’? He’s my dad not yours.” Katherine answered “everyone else is…
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Signs of growth
About 10 seconds after taking the sacrament bread Ezra leaned into me and whispered “Dad, I’m going to be good from now on.” When I asked him why he said “because I want to.” I don’t know what he felt but clearly he had some kind of experience during the sacrament today. I was proud…
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Breakthrough
I feel confident that divorce is completely off the table with Laura. I said on the 13th that it seemed to be going that direction but now 12 days later the conversation that Laura and I had as she drove me home from the train station put my recent uncertainty to rest. Laura had been…
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Discount movie day
Laura had talked for some time about going to movies on a Tuesday when tickets are $5. Today as she picked me up from work she said that the family needed a break from routine and suggested that we go see You Story 4. That was a great way to spend the evening – a…
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Distance
Laura seems fairly happy with me but since Friday she has basically avoided physical contact in bed since Friday. She consented to snuggles for a while when I asked yesterday but clearly she wasn’t interested for herself. I’m starting to think that she might be trying to distance herself from me out of fear that…