David Journal

Tag: healing

  • In my defense

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    I don’t anticipate ever sending this to Laura but i had to capture my thoughts on the unfairness if how she had treated me—holding unrealistic expectations under the circumstances—and how much I have done to try building positive relationships in the family contrary to her claims. Though I don’t anticipate giving her this letter it…

  • Healing insights

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    I look back and see that for much of my young adult life I was a withered and sickly little tree. Then as I felt I was beginning to get a handle on adult life I was smitten with the effects of bipolar as with the East wind. While still learning to balance in that…

  • Expanded quarantine

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    News came this afternoon that the schools will be closed at least until the beginning of May. That will be six full weeks of online school. Hopefully Savannah will get a few weeks back in school with friends but with another five weeks together as a family we might be able to enact some much…

  • Laura’s epiphany

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    Laura woke up early this morning with energy and clarity of thought. She talked to me and I felt it necessary to make a record of what she said in case her memory got closed later. Laura dreamed last night and finally saw clearly how things have been for so many years for everyone in…

  • Laura is home!!

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    The amount of work we put in today was further proof that Laura coming home yesterday wasn’t truly an option. I got all of Alyssa’s stuff out of her room and set up the table distress plus I laid carpet pad in the downstairs hallway that had been bare concrete and Savannah painted the kids…

  • Almost reunited

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    We tried to have the house ready for Laura to return today but when she finally came over she was disappointed by the progress we had made. Thankfully she began ordering our efforts and we made great strides. By the end of the day things looked much better even though there are still a couple…

  • Another new stretch

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    Laura had a good long talk with Becca that and was feeling good but that quickly was overcome by negative thoughts when she came back home to see hitting, yelling etc. I told her that we need to expect and mitigate fatigue during the next couple of weeks as we strive to get her back…

  • Mounting anxiety

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    Laura is feeling the stress of how much we have ahead of us this week. Much is asked of her with the end of the school year, the still-new nanny, and the advent of summer, not to mention her preparing to come back and live with us again. I can feel where that anxiety would…

  • Making plans

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    Last night Laura went walking with Kenzie Airmet. By midnight, when she didn’t call or let me know that she was home I decided to go see if she was home yet. I got there just as she texted to apologize for leaving her phone behind. We talked for a minute and she was very…

  • Overnight visit

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    Laura had a rough day today. She can to visit this morning and made the mistake of focusing her thoughts​ on finding a nanny then compounded that by calling Katie Harmer. I didn’t help when I talked about issues with Isaac and Alyssa – issues where​ I feel hopeful but she ends up feeling hopeless.…