David Journal

Tag: Laura

  • Making changes

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    I have been recording my intent and my attempts to make changes in my life but today I want to make note of the changes that Laura is clearly attempting to implement.

  • Tracking interactions

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    I’ve been wanting to keep actual data on Laura having interactions with the kids. Today she voluntarily told me what she had done and described what she considers to be a qualified interaction, then she suggested that I could help track. I guess that means I won’t have to talk her into letting me keep…

  • A step from Laura

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    Laura told me today that when she met with her therapist yesterday she talked about wanting to start doing more. Her therapist suggested one activity per month. Laura said that she wanted something smaller and more consistent and her therapist suggested doing one errand with each child every week. I really like that suggestion. I…

  • Staring a conversation

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    I’ve been thinking about likely needing to get 2 new cars within the next few (probably less than 3) years. This morning I was thinking about that as $40,000 that I definitely won’t have. Then I thought about the fact that I can expect to keep working for at least 20 more years but for…

  • A legitimate nightmare

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    Last night I woke up from a horrible dream. I dreamed I was doing everything I could to patch things up with Laura. I was inviting her to participate in something (not anything I can specifically recall) to help us get closer and she just flat rejected me and told me that she was sure…

  • Iniquity, dissensions, and intrigue

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    What is the difference between these three things? How many of them needed to be present for the Nephites to begin to lose the protections of righteousness? Which of these have been at play in my family to bring us to the brink of collapse? Iniquity has certainly be part of it for many of…

  • In my defense

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    I don’t anticipate ever sending this to Laura but i had to capture my thoughts on the unfairness if how she had treated me—holding unrealistic expectations under the circumstances—and how much I have done to try building positive relationships in the family contrary to her claims. Though I don’t anticipate giving her this letter it…

  • Dead inside

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    I read 9 chapters of Psalms, including the longest (Psalm 119), and it’s just words. I feel dead inside at the reminder that nothing I have tried to do means anything to Laura. She can claim that we had a good weekend in Jackson Hole but really she had a vacation and I was along…

  • Sleeping?

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    This afternoon Laura was talking happily about how easily she had been able to fall asleep these last few days because she wasn’t taking an evening nap. After going to bed she came back upstairs and asked for a blessing because she’s has a hard time falling asleep the last couple of days. (irony much?)

  • Father’s Day Surprise

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    For probably the first time in 20 years I was truly surprised this Father’s Day. Laura and the girls (probably Savannah and Mariah) got me balloons with confetti in them and an ice cream cake for Father’s Day. I didn’t have any hint that they had anything when they came out not long after church…