David Journal

Tag: Laura

  • Everything worked out

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    Yesterday I had a full schedule with the distinct possibility of commitments interfering with each other. Plus I had to be in the lookout for whether Laura would still be allocated with thoughts of wanting to die. I had to help Emily load her moving truck at 9 with someone coming from Jones Paint &…

  • Conducting meetings according to the spirit

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    I love that we have a clear record of how crucial ordinances were conducted (baptisms, ordinations, sacrament prayers) but I like the experience of the last couple of months where we have conducted sacrament in our homes and I have had the opportunity to conduct the meetings in the best way I can to bring…

  • Laura Awakening

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    Over the last couple of weeks Laura has started to do more and reach out emotionally toward life. I have noticed her references to the church become more “us” and less “them.” Tonight she asked for my support in starting to study the scriptures again. I look forward to her opening up to feel the…

  • Easter rebirth

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    It is fitting that I read of Christ visiting the Nephites on this matter weekend. It occurs to me that when Christ comes again he will do it in the spring – around Easter/Passover. When he reveals himself to the world he will do so by declaring the truth and making clear to whom he…

  • Alter the Management

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    I’ve been brainstorming today about what changes would fundamentally change the equation for me and the family. Here are things I have identified: Make an unbreakable habit of daily prayer (how?) Fast with purpose Attend the temple regularly Regular family scripture study (is that even possible for us?) Increase income by $1000/month Get a job…

  • Temple attendance

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    It has probably been a year since I put my family on hold long enough to go to the temple. I finally went this morning. I really want to make sure I go more often than that going forward. Laura has been asking me to only pay tithing on half or money and give her…

  • Hope for things not seen

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    The difference between my response and Laura’s to the years of challenge behind us and potentially ahead of us is that she no longer hopes for things not seen – she simply despairs for the things she does see (some of which aren’t even true).

  • Coordinated efforts

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    I worked from home today to make time for a visit with Laura’s therapist. We had a great visit where I she’d some light on how things are going at home. Among the things we talked about she asked about Noah and his stealing. She concluded that he should have therapy – preferably from a…

  • Generic day

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    I am increasingly convinced that I don’t want to stay working under Matt long term. Nothing specific today, just that feeling that I need to find something that fits who I want to become. For gratitude: I’m grateful to have a sensor who was willing to make the hard choice to vote to convict the…

  • Therapy for me

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    I meet with a therapist for myself today. After an hour of taking her basically said he was processing and didn’t have answered yet. He suggested a couple of books and that I should try keeping a gratitude journal listing three things, no matter how small, that I was grateful for. I felt good about…