David Journal

Tag: Laura

  • Breakthrough

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    I feel confident that divorce is completely off the table with Laura. I said on the 13th that it seemed to be going that direction but now 12 days later the conversation that Laura and I had as she drove me home from the train station put my recent uncertainty to rest. Laura had been…

  • Discount movie day

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    Laura had talked for some time about going to movies on a Tuesday when tickets are $5. Today as she picked me up from work she said that the family needed a break from routine and suggested that we go see You Story 4. That was a great way to spend the evening – a…

  • Distance

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    Laura seems fairly happy with me but since Friday she has basically avoided physical contact in bed since Friday. She consented to snuggles for a while when I asked yesterday but clearly she wasn’t interested for herself. I’m starting to think that she might be trying to distance herself from me out of fear that…

  • Baby steps

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    Laura mentioned this afternoon that she has started praying again in the last day or so. I think that having her start praying means that she is ready to try trusting again both trusting me and trusting God. I’m sure it will take time, trial, and some reversals in the process.

  • The drought nearly ends

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    Tonight just before I went to bed Laura told me she was interested in snuggles and would be coming to bed soon. She didn’t want me falling asleep before she joined me. When she came to bed she did so without clothes. I was happy for naked snuggles but still surprised with how quickly she…

  • Deliberate Denial

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    Snuggles last night heated up much more than in previous nights and took a decidedly sexual turn – right up until Laura decided she was done. I enjoyed the direction but today I had to make sure that I had not been misreading Laura last night and that her reversal was not a case of…

  • Laura’s half

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    I realized today that no matter how much apologizing I do (and I’m getting progressively better at doing it) Laura will not feel safe until she does her part in choosing to believe in my good faith efforts – past and present. She acknowledged my current and recently past efforts but efforts more than 2…

  • Probably winning

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    This morning I asked Laura if we could talk privately. She assumed that I would be petitioning for sex and based on her response I began to feel that I might be making headway against the idea of divorce. Her response was that she feels that starting to have sex again just now might subtly…

  • Coming home

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    We had a great trip to the Shakespeare Festival these last few days. Today was a good end as we got out of the hotel on time without fuss and then had a great Peruvian lunch at Piscos where we had wanted to go last night but they were too busy to get us out…

  • Sleeping together

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    Last night Laura actually invited me to snuggle with her when we went to bed. That hasn’t happened since before she started talking about divorce and it seems like a very good sign that she’s feeling that divorce isn’t the route forward. Today we were favored when we checked into the hotel in Cedar City…